My Day To Day Struggles As A Single Mother Battling Depression And Anxiety

          Glioblastoma Cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My computer is not letting me upload the education on here! sorry for the small picture but its something.... more information on google! Til next time...... 

My post today is to support my children's grandmother! She was diagnosed with glioblastoma Cancer in June, and has had surgery to remove tumors, and currently on chemo for the remainder of her life. The women is one of the strongest women i have ever meet in my life. Shes always gone above and beyond to help anyone in need. Shit the whole town calls her MOM, lol She has helped so many people in her life. Now its time to give back to her, she is not one to ask for help even if she needs it, shes such a strong independent women. There are no words to explain what a gift it has to been part of her amazing life! Please Share the word, and find it in your heart to help her! send prayers. On my next post its information on this form of brain cancer so you can better understand how serious it is. Til next time......

OK so, I work from home for an awesome company in Iceland! I have no complaints about this job. I pretty much make my own hours, {unless theres a deadline}. I get excellent salary pay plus 10% commission for payments i process myself! People always asked me how i was going ever be able to take care of 5 kids plus house and bills myself. Well I'm doing it, and from the comfort of my home! So don't ever let people tell you that you cant do something, If i can do this anyone can! I have struggled for years financially. It has been extremely hard to find a job that works with all the kids schedules and that allows me to be with them as much as possible to take care of there needs. Its no secret about how expensive childcare is defiantly when you don't get child support for your children! I would find a job that worked well with kids schedules but didn't pay enough to cover childcare let alone gas, bills, house payments, food, clothes, and any other needs! This job a

My Internet is finally back up and running, after along few days fighting with the company!!! My home account has only been active for 6 freaking days and i was only able to use it for one full day..... Frustration to the core. My mind has been spinning for last couple days, i have my up and downs with depression. I laugh every time i hear a person tell the depressed person to just be happy theres alot that have it worst. depression is not a thing that can be turned off and on, its uncontrollable... I have found it extremely hard to find a single person to actually understand what i actually feel on a daily basis. When your depressed you tend to feel alone, lol yea, so what is it called when you are actually distant and alone not by choice from family???? Its not hard to pick up a phone just to say hi, or how ya been! And theres always text. Yes i have the company of my 5 children full time, but sometime you just need an adult to talk to, or a friend, or family member. For some reas

Just a friendly reminder it is never safe to drink and drive! 1000 of  innocent lives are lost each year due to irresponsible drinking! In loving memory of all the innocent mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, children, aunt, uncles, cousin's, neices, and newphews out there that lost there lives due to someone else getting behind the wheel drunk!!!!

This is going be a fast one!!!!! So after my last blog yesterday, i couldnt get on here to update you about the rest of my day due to my internet providers!!!! I have had service for 1 week with them and already having alot of problem. No internet connection so what they do send a tech out to resolve the problem. Was the problem resolved? HELL NO! Tech comes door and states its an outside wire job and central office tech will have to come out and properly fix it. Come on, I mean seriously! So im without internet on my laptop til tuesday. OMG. Im writing in red today because of my anger at this company. Think red almost always emplies an irritable mood..... After that mess i find out im actually going to get one night to myself away from ALL 5 kiddos, woohoo mini vacation so i thought.... they left last night around 5pm and hour after that the family member on there dads side calls me and says. "Can you come and pick up your daughter i cant handle her". WTF... it took me an

I woke up this morning not to my alarm, but to what sounded like World War 3 coming from my kids bedroom!!! I seriously thought someone was being murdered... Come to find out little Miss Emma,   {my youngest child} has started in yet another day of continuest fighting with everyone in the house. EMMA, believe she can have whatever she wants whenever she wants. Even if that involves hurting a sibling. When Emma gets mad ya better Alert the media cause all hell is about to break loose! This morning Emma decided she would throw scissors at her brother cause he wouldn't allow her to draw on his papers!!!  ME: Are you allowed to have scissors without asking me? EMMA: No ME: So why do you have them? EMMA: cause i found them. ME: Are you allowed to hurt your brother or sisters? EMMA: No... but i wanted to draw on aidyns picture ME: Do you like it when someone hurts you?  EMMA: No ME: Than why do you think its OK to hurt someone else, cause you can really seriously hurt someone

The day has come to the end..... Well for my kids at least, I'm so tired everyday and night from absolutely doing nothing! Still i find myself wide awake when i should be turning in to bed. I think what happens is my anxiety takes control of my mind at night when all else is calm, and my mind starts to have racing thoughts about the next day! I always wonder to myself does anyone else feel the same as i do??? Even if i did sleep all night and all day, i still wake up exhausted! Makes no since right? My day consisted of waking up the normal 6:45am, got kids on bus for school. than laid back down to sleep yet another 3 hours.  I told myself i wasn't going stay in my bedroom all day, as i normally do. I was supposed get out today, maybe take my youngest to the park or go for a walk. But saying and doing are not the same things i might add!!! I have all these wonderful ideals and things i want to do but never seem to get them done. The shitty part about that is my kids are o

Wow, Where do i start? Hello My names Megan Elizabeth Hart, I was born August 1st 1987, I struggle with depression and anxiety. I am currently 30 years old and have 5 beautiful children i raise on my own. Hannah my oldest is 11, born 5-18-06. My second child Haileigh 9 years of age born 10-11-07 {my aka little drama queen}. My third child Aidyn 7 years of age born 10-17-09 my only boy. {yea i know poor child, lol). My fourth child Peyton 6 years of age born 11-25-10, six weeks early might i add on thanksgiving day! she's truly unique she suffers with adhd. Last but not least, My little EMMA 4 years of age born 2-28-13. Wow, words can not describe this little girl!!!! lol. You'll soon learn what i mean, and why i say {words can not describe}. She can be a monster, but i truly love my kids without a doubt in my mind! And trust me my mind can be a scary place. Anyway, i think i wanted to start this blog not only to help myself relieve stress, but maybe someone else can relate t