My Official First Blog!
Wow, Where do i start?
Hello My names Megan Elizabeth Hart, I was born August 1st 1987, I struggle with depression and anxiety. I am currently 30 years old and have 5 beautiful children i raise on my own. Hannah my oldest is 11, born 5-18-06. My second child Haileigh 9 years of age born 10-11-07 {my aka little drama queen}. My third child Aidyn 7 years of age born 10-17-09 my only boy. {yea i know poor child, lol). My fourth child Peyton 6 years of age born 11-25-10, six weeks early might i add on thanksgiving day! she's truly unique she suffers with adhd. Last but not least, My little EMMA 4 years of age born 2-28-13. Wow, words can not describe this little girl!!!! lol. You'll soon learn what i mean, and why i say {words can not describe}. She can be a monster, but i truly love my kids without a doubt in my mind! And trust me my mind can be a scary place.
Anyway, i think i wanted to start this blog not only to help myself relieve stress, but maybe someone else can relate to my life and can help them to......
My whole life i have struggled with this so called thing, called "Depression". The Anxiety didn't come til my late 20s. It defiantly effects my day to day life, well not only mine it effects my childrens to. Some days i struggle to even get out of my bed. which than it effects my childrens lives, cause than they have wait on me. Everyday is different tho. Some days i am perfectly fine! Not many i might add. I want to do normal activities with my children, cause i love them more than anything in this world! I just feel so lost most time.
My anxiety has got me so nervous most time when i feel good or normal, i still can't make myself leave my house! I dread going to public crowded places, like the grocery store. Or anywhere that has alot of people. I have no social life what so ever. I just gave up on trying with that! But being a mom, i have make myself go at times, cause there isn't any help around for me. The kids have to have food, drinks, school needs,ect.....
This so called "Depression and Anxiety" has played a major role in my life and let me tell you what, it fucking sucks! excuse my launguage.
I'm pretty sure it's the reason my kids get away with some of the things they get away with. Like not listening to me. I can not get them listen to me at ALL! Someone else walks in and tells them what to do, sure enough they right on that! I mean {WTF} really? I am the mother.... Ugh.
Once my Anxiety hits the roof, there go the rules for the kids cause mommy has walk away and calm down, or "bring on the panic attack"!
Anyhow, I'll be blogging about my life, children, cats, and day to day challenges and struggles.
And trust me my life is not boring, lol Crazy, Beautiful, and messy, is the best way to describe it! So check in everyday, see my updates, see whats new.
Thanks for reading my first officail blog! Til next time.
Hello My names Megan Elizabeth Hart, I was born August 1st 1987, I struggle with depression and anxiety. I am currently 30 years old and have 5 beautiful children i raise on my own. Hannah my oldest is 11, born 5-18-06. My second child Haileigh 9 years of age born 10-11-07 {my aka little drama queen}. My third child Aidyn 7 years of age born 10-17-09 my only boy. {yea i know poor child, lol). My fourth child Peyton 6 years of age born 11-25-10, six weeks early might i add on thanksgiving day! she's truly unique she suffers with adhd. Last but not least, My little EMMA 4 years of age born 2-28-13. Wow, words can not describe this little girl!!!! lol. You'll soon learn what i mean, and why i say {words can not describe}. She can be a monster, but i truly love my kids without a doubt in my mind! And trust me my mind can be a scary place.
Anyway, i think i wanted to start this blog not only to help myself relieve stress, but maybe someone else can relate to my life and can help them to......
My whole life i have struggled with this so called thing, called "Depression". The Anxiety didn't come til my late 20s. It defiantly effects my day to day life, well not only mine it effects my childrens to. Some days i struggle to even get out of my bed. which than it effects my childrens lives, cause than they have wait on me. Everyday is different tho. Some days i am perfectly fine! Not many i might add. I want to do normal activities with my children, cause i love them more than anything in this world! I just feel so lost most time.
My anxiety has got me so nervous most time when i feel good or normal, i still can't make myself leave my house! I dread going to public crowded places, like the grocery store. Or anywhere that has alot of people. I have no social life what so ever. I just gave up on trying with that! But being a mom, i have make myself go at times, cause there isn't any help around for me. The kids have to have food, drinks, school needs,ect.....
This so called "Depression and Anxiety" has played a major role in my life and let me tell you what, it fucking sucks! excuse my launguage.
I'm pretty sure it's the reason my kids get away with some of the things they get away with. Like not listening to me. I can not get them listen to me at ALL! Someone else walks in and tells them what to do, sure enough they right on that! I mean {WTF} really? I am the mother.... Ugh.
Once my Anxiety hits the roof, there go the rules for the kids cause mommy has walk away and calm down, or "bring on the panic attack"!
Anyhow, I'll be blogging about my life, children, cats, and day to day challenges and struggles.
And trust me my life is not boring, lol Crazy, Beautiful, and messy, is the best way to describe it! So check in everyday, see my updates, see whats new.
Thanks for reading my first officail blog! Til next time.
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ReplyDeleteReally sad stories. God know everything. Go and pray to him owners of everyhing
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